我的信仰之旅—从受中共信仰迫害到反共获得新生
何兴强
我从小就对上帝和信仰有很大的兴趣，对于宗教类的书籍和相关内容比较关注，我内心深处相信有一个造物主，有上帝的存在，时常困惑中国人为什么不敬拜上帝！为什么不去宗教场所，我的父母也从来不带我去任何宗教的场所，感觉内心对于信仰存在诸多的困惑。因为有诸多的困惑所以我读了一些宗教类的书籍，儒家的《论语》老子，庄子，佛教的书籍，《六祖坛经》等等一些书籍，希望从中可以找到我的答案以及对于信仰困惑的终极解决方案，但是从来没有一个让自己内心感到满意的答案！始终相信应该能够有一种修炼方式可以让人能够和上帝对话，真正的接触到上帝，在中国九十年代气功很流行的年代，也尝试练习气功，还帮别人治病，不知道是心理作用还是什么原因，病人自己说是有效果，但是在内心来讲还是有诸多的困惑，感觉灵魂没有找到归宿，没有找到信仰的方向。从小受的教育就是无神论和唯物主义，要为共产主义的伟大理想而奋斗等等！但是我始终觉得这是有问题的，人不相信上帝的存在，人的行为就没有一个约束，人没有敬畏心就会出现很多问题，就像共产党的为所欲为，滥杀无辜，这是整个国家的问题，归根到底是共产党的洗脑和同化教育！
我练习气功的一个老师，后来介绍了观音法门清海无上师给我，当时看到师傅讲法的视频和书籍，就感觉这就是我所寻找的和上帝沟通的正确方法，这个师傅就是真正明白真理的开悟的师傅，所以经过三个月的素食，我参加了印心进入了这个灵修团体，通过师傅传授的打坐的方法我感觉，和上帝有了真正的沟通，内心十分的充实和满足！
清海无上师是一个开悟的明师，她时常讲到耶稣基督为世人所做的一切，包括殉道，为世人付出了自己生命的代价，通过她的开示和讲解我真正了解到耶稣的伟大！内心有圣灵的感动，清海无上师对于佛教等其他宗教都有深入浅出的讲解，她说所有宗教都是为了寻找上帝，接近上帝和上帝对话，只不过世人有不同的语言，所以有不同的理解和解释方式，所以会造成很多误解，师傅是很有才华的一个开悟的人，清海无上师会讲英语、法语、德语、越南语、汉语等语言，每种语言她都可以自如交流！这让我一个从事语言工作的人，从内心来讲非常的佩服。
清海无上师在讲法开示的过程中提到，共产主义终将走向灭亡！我当时感到些许的困惑，但是后来感觉她说的真的非常的对，中国共产党因为她这样的言论把她列为危险人物！观音法门也被列为邪教，纵然中国大陆有几十万她的信众她也没有机会去到大陆，因为中共害怕她，害怕她的影响力，害怕她讲真话。
相比较大陆，台湾是一个自由民主的国家，观音法门早期在这个土地上生根发芽不断壮大，很多大陆观音法门的弟子都渴望能去到台湾见到师傅！所以大陆观音法门的弟子都羡慕台湾的自由民主！人民享有宗教信仰的自由，人有人权和自由，这是天赐的福气！
观音法门除了在台湾，在中国大陆，在世界其他国家也有数以万计的信众，在美国有很多的中心，因为祈祷和上帝沟通的主要方式就是打坐，所以世界各地都有很多打坐祈祷中心，美国的各个州都有，我来到了美国就联系到了洛杉矶当地的打坐中心，每周日早上参加打坐祈祷。
相比较美国和其他民主国家宽松的宗教信仰环境，中国国内就是非常的受压迫受到严重的压制！没有正式的打坐祈祷中心，因为中共不让发展，想要消灭掉这样的宗教团体，就像法轮功一样！被中共完全取缔！学员被抓，被判刑，被活摘器官，这样的骇人听闻的事情在中共统治下的中国是在实实在在的发生着。着实令人痛心！
我的大学同学就是法轮功的学员，在大学二年级的时候，他被学校国安的抓起来在进行集中教育，大学毕业以后，他因为继续练习法轮功被单位开除，后来被判刑！他的老父亲去到我的家里痛哭流涕，说他是大逆不道，其实回想起来中共才是最大的刽子手，中共让多少正常的家庭破裂，就是因为追求心中的信仰就被迫害被判刑，实在没有天理。前段期间我们在纽约抗议，遇到法轮功一个学员，说她被中共抓起来，关到一个屋子里，抽血，进行器官移植配对，幸运的是她没有配对成功，不然就被活摘器官，这是他的学生告诉她的，她现在家破人亡一个人来到美国，是美国这样伟大的国家，给了她自由的空气和宗教信仰的自由。
我练习观音法门的介绍人，也被他们训话，当地的国安三番五次找他谈话，让他离开观音法门组织，不要再参加观音法门的活动，我们很多书籍和录像资料都不得不烧毁！
在西安观音法门的六位弟子因为传播观音法门的信息，被抓起来判刑。
新疆也有观音法门弟子被判刑！总之在中国大陆观音法门虽然是不像法轮功一样被中共灭绝式取缔，但是观音法门的信众也不能正常从事打坐和祈祷活动，只能在家里，默默祈祷和打坐，观音法门的官方网站godsdirectcontact.org有列出世界各地的打坐中心，唯独没有中国大陆的打坐中心，就是因为中共的严厉打压和迫害！尽管在美国和其他国家被认为成是合法的宗教团体但是在中国共产党统治下的中国就不能被允许存在！
来到美国我义无反顾的参加了反共组织，先后加入了中国民主党和中国民主人权联盟，因为感到共产党实在是邪恶实在是反人类，反人性，反人民的存在，共产党以及共产主义，必须从地球上被清除出去！只有这样中国才能迎来真正的宪政自由，中国人民才能有真正的宗教信仰自由，言论自由和人权。
My Journey of Faith — From Persecution by the CCP to Rebirth as an Anti-Communist
Author: He Xingqiang
Since childhood I have been deeply interested in God and faith; I paid a lot of attention to religious books and related materials. Deep down I believed there was a Creator, that God existed, and I was often puzzled as to why Chinese people do not worship God or go to religious places. My parents never took me to any religious venue, and my heart was full of questions about faith. Because of these doubts I read many religious works — Confucian texts like the Analects, Laozi and Zhuangzi, Buddhist writings including the Platform Sutra of the Sixth Patriarch, and other books — hoping to find answers and a final solution to my spiritual confusion. Yet none of them satisfied me. I always believed there must be a practice that allows a person to truly speak with God and actually encounter Him.
In the 1990s, when qigong was very popular in China, I tried practicing qigong and even helped others with healing. Whether it was a placebo effect or something else, patients said it helped. Still, inside I had many unresolved questions — my soul hadn’t found a home, I hadn’t found a direction for my faith. From early education I was taught atheism and materialism, and to strive for the great communist ideal. But I always felt this was wrong: if people do not believe in God, there is no moral restraint, no reverence, and many problems arise — just as the Communist Party acts with impunity and kills without conscience. At root, it’s the Party’s brainwashing and assimilating education.
A qigong teacher I studied with later introduced me to the Guanyin Famen and to Supreme Master Ching Hai. When I watched the Master’s lectures and read her books, I felt this was the way I had been seeking to communicate with God. I believed this Master was enlightened and truly understood the truth. After three months of a vegetarian diet, I underwent “imprinting” and joined that spiritual group. Through the meditation techniques the Master taught, I felt I truly connected with God — my heart became full and satisfied.
Supreme Master Ching Hai is an enlightened teacher who often speaks of what Jesus Christ did for humanity, including His sacrifice and martyrdom. Through her discourses I truly came to understand the greatness of Jesus, and my heart was moved by the Holy Spirit. The Master also explains Buddhism and other religions clearly and accessibly; she says all religions seek God and the approach to God differs by language and cultural interpretation, which causes misunderstandings. The Master is very talented and enlightened — she speaks English, French, German, Vietnamese, Chinese, and other languages fluently. As someone who works with languages, I deeply admire that.
During her teachings the Master said that communism will eventually perish. I was puzzled then, but later felt she was absolutely right. Because of statements like that the Chinese Communist Party considers her a dangerous person. Guanyin Famen was labeled a “cult,” and even though there are hundreds of thousands of followers on the mainland, she cannot go there because the CCP fears her influence and the truth she speaks.
Compared with the mainland, Taiwan is a free and democratic country where Guanyin Famen took root early and grew. Many mainland followers long to go to Taiwan to see the Master. Mainland practitioners envy Taiwan’s democracy: people there enjoy freedom of religion, human rights, and liberty — blessings from heaven.
Besides Taiwan, Guanyin Famen has tens of thousands of followers in other countries and many centers in the U.S., because the main method of prayer and communicating with God is meditation. There are meditation centers around the world and in many U.S. states. After I came to the United States I connected with a meditation center in Los Angeles and attended meditation and prayer every Sunday morning.
In contrast to the loose religious environment in the U.S. and other democracies, mainland China is heavily oppressed and strictly controlled. There are no official meditation and prayer centers because the CCP will not allow them to grow; it seeks to eliminate such religious groups just as it did with Falun Gong — banning them entirely. Practitioners are arrested, imprisoned, and have their organs harvested. These shocking atrocities are actually happening under CCP rule in China. It is heartbreaking.
A college classmate of mine practiced Falun Gong. In his sophomore year he was taken away by campus national security and subjected to “re-education.” After graduating, because he continued practicing he was fired from his job and later sentenced to prison. His elderly father came to my home in tears, calling him a traitor; in fact, it is the CCP that is the greatest executioner. How many normal families have been torn apart because people pursued their faith and were persecuted and jailed? There is no justice. Recently, during our protest in New York, we met a Falun Gong practitioner who told us she had been detained by the CCP, confined in a room, had blood drawn, and was matched for organ transplants. Fortunately she did not match; otherwise she would have been harvested alive. Her life and family were destroyed; she came alone to the United States because America’s great freedoms gave her the air of liberty and freedom of religion.
The person who introduced me to Guanyin Famen was also repeatedly summoned by state security and told to leave the organization and stop attending events. We had to burn many books and video materials. In Xi’an, six Guanyin Famen practitioners were arrested and sentenced for spreading information about the practice. In Xinjiang there were also practitioners imprisoned. Although Guanyin Famen in the mainland is not completely wiped out like Falun Gong, its followers cannot openly meditate and pray; they can only do so quietly at home. The official Guanyin Famen website, godsdirectcontact.org, lists meditation centers worldwide — except for any centers in mainland China, precisely because of the CCP’s severe repression and persecution. Although Guanyin Famen is considered a legitimate religious group in the United States and other countries, it cannot exist freely under CCP rule.
After coming to the United States I wholeheartedly joined anti-Communist organizations. I became a member of the China Democracy Party and the China Democratic Human Rights League because I felt the Communist Party is truly evil, anti-human, and anti-person. The Party and communism must be removed from the earth. Only then can China welcome real constitutional governance, and Chinese people enjoy genuine freedom of religion, freedom of speech, and human rights.
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